Monday, December 31, 2012

Best December ever.

 This picture sums up my December.  Happy for another year of being here and being 35.  So far, 35 rocks.


35, baby!

 
 



















On December 8, We went to see Santa with friends and invited everyone to our house afterwards for some Christmas cheer and maybe a birthday cake since my birthday was the next day.


What was so fun about the night is that everyone walked in my house happy and ready to celebrate anything that came our way.  We started with pics that were nice.

But as the night continued the laughter only increased.  We had the best time.  Kids were up and running around until 10p.m. and we were still laughing and dancing.  Literally the best and happiest birthday I've ever had.
Then 5 days later, I hopped on a plane and headed to Punta Cana for 5 days with my 3 oldest, closest, bestest of friends.  The four of us met in college and have stayed close since.  Jen (on the far right) had a birthday while we were there so there was lots of celebration.  Everyone keeps asking for more pics but unfortunately, many can't be shown.  Just because we are 35 and 36, and 3 of us have kids does not mean we don't know how to have a good time.  Whew.  It was a blast.

LOVE these girls!!



I was home for 3 days and then we left for VA for Christmas festivities.  Seriously. It's been a fabulous December.

There are a few people that read this blog that know there are a few not so great things that happened in December. I plan on blogging about that eventually. But for now, let's focus on the positive and what an amazing life I have. It's not much but it's fulfilling and happy. That's something, right? Here's to a happy and healthy 2013.

Tuesday, December 4, 2012

Christmas before Birthday

I am a "no tree until after my birthday" kind of girl.  But this year, I have a few things making me want to put a tree up earlier.

1. peer pressure
2. friends over on Saturday for holiday/kid playing/fun/drinks
3. Dominican Republic trip for 5 days starting December 14
4. two very cute little guys that live with me.

So we have a tree. On December 2.  And, I love it.  It makes me so happy.  Now I just need to find the time to clean the rest of my house so that I can finish decorating.  I do love this time of year!

Friday, November 16, 2012

concussion

Does this sweet, chubby face look like it could hurt you? No! Of course not. 

Oh, but it did.

On Sunday, the boys and I were "snuggling" in my bed.  Charlie sat up and I guess thinking he had more room than he did, he threw himself backwards onto what he thought was the pillow.  But instead, I was there.

I sobbed, he sobbed and we all went on about our day.

On Wednesday, Hilly and I met for a short run and I felt TERRIBLE.  After a 3 mile run, I was surprised that I couldn't sleep at all that night. My body ached, my temp was fluctuating, I felt dizzy and all around icky.  So I started googling.

The next day, I go to see the school nurse and yes, she's convinced I have a concussion and says I need to go home right away and rest my brain.  Literally rest my brain.

So yesterday I sat on my sofa staring at the wall, got great rest and feel much better today.

Who would have guessed a concussion from my sweet baby?! Not me!

Friday, November 9, 2012

26 point 2

About a month before the marathon we decided to take the Amtrak to DC so that we could easily stretch our legs before and after the race.  It was a great idea and I will certainly look into train travel more often.  The weeks leading up to the marathon were tough.  I was so busy at work and the marathon was all I had on my mind. I just wanted it to be here and I really just wanted the train ride to be here so that I could relax for 8 hours with some of my closest friends.

We finally got to DC right on time and found our way to our AWESOME Brownstone located on Capitol Hill, just about 5 blocks from the Eastern Market metro station.  Word to any travelers: don't get a hotel when you go somewhere ever again.  Going to VRBO and finding a place to stay is definitely the way to go.  You get all the comforts of home (full kitchen, laundry, sofas to lounge on, etc) and everytime we've stayed in one, it's been way cheaper per night than a hotel room would be. 

After settling in a little, we found an amazing place for dinner in the Eastern Market area called Trattoria Alberto.  They had a table for 6 and so we feasted on pasta, bread, and carafes of wine.  It was a perfect evening.

On Saturday morning, we got up early for the expo.  I had in my mind that I didn't want to do much walking on Saturday because of the race the next day.  WE were at the expo pretty much all day.  I was over it by the time we left.  I'm just not a fan of too many people and trust me when I say, there were too many people.  Friday night we'd found a grocery store (complete with an F-bomb throwing foster mom) so we got all the stuff we needed for dinner the night before the race.

The girls went for a "shake out" run while the guys started getting dinner ready.  That run was key for my sleep on Saturday night.  We only went 2 miles but any exercise makes a big difference in my sleep habits.  Not only that, but it definitely helped ease the nerves for me.  I was reminded that the first mile of most runs just kind of sucks.  Even though I'm a marathoner now, I can still say that there are miles that will always suck and for me, it's usually that first 1 or 2 of any run.

We came home (see? The Brownstone feels so much like home, that's what I call it!), ate a yummy dinner and started trying on outfits and setting things out for the next day.  I had my alarm set for 4:30 so I knew I needed to go to bed early.  I finally turned off all my electronics at around 9:30 p.m. and went to sleep.  A good sleep! Not even a toss and turn worrying about the alarm. Success!

I bounced downstairs to find not only Hilly but also Hilly's hubby.  Got dressed, drank coffee and watched CNN for a while before getting dressed.  Every long run has to go this same way.  Coffee, CNN, coffee, breakfast, coffee, potty, dress, run. 

We scooted out the door around 5:50 after the obligatory freak-outs about not having enough supplies, food, water, snot rags, etc. 

We were dressed to impress in snuggies and bathrobes (it TOTALLY matched my shoes!), got onto the metro and headed to the Pentagon station.  From there, we had to walk a damn 1/2 marathon to get to the race. Not kidding.  I wanted to be upbeat and positive but the walk sucked.  Sure, there was excitement and energy and the bestrunningbuddiesever but still.  Again, snapped obligatory pics and headed to the port-a-johns.

Ick. I can still smell and see the things we saw there.  So bad.  Nervous runners are not nice to port-a-johns.  Let's leave it at that.

Finally we got to the corrals and oh, the race had started a good 15 minutes prior.  Hilly (or someone?) got nervous that we were going to close to the start (i.e. fast people) but the start had started. So we kept walking.

And then we started. And then I was like. HOLY SHIT I am running a marathon, WTF?!  Really.

Before I start counting out the miles here's something that kind of sucks about running a marathon.  You ready for it?  Are you sure?  Running a marathon is just like running a 5k. Or a 10k or even a half. Except it's a shit-ton longer.  Not kidding.  Now I know you are probably like, "ooookkkayyy... and?" but I don't know. I kind of expected it to be different.  Like MARATHON!!!!!!!!!!! I expected people to look different and the crowd to feel different and I don't know? Have like gold plated start lines?  Or glitter coming down from the sky as we started?  NO idea what I expected I just didn't expect it to be like every other race I've run. 

So the miles just started ticking by.  Easy peasy.  Around mile 6 we came out of a gorgeous park and ran by water and then headed up a hill to Georgetown.  If you are reading this and from my city I can tell you what - D.C. has NOTHING on our hills.  I felt very prepared for these hills.  Very easy and short.  But, this hill with the narrowness of it and the fact that there was a water stop at the top made me lose my girls.  Oh, sad day.  I was with another girlfriend so we waited, we ran backwards, we risked our LIVES looking for them but we just decided to go anyway.

The next miles were okay.  I thought I was going to see KT at mile 10 but I didn't.  I really needed a banana and I think around mile 14 my running buddy knew I was fading so she told me a story.  There's nothing better than when a fellow runner says, "Do you need a story?" "Or, let me tell you something. It'll take a full mile." YES PLEASE.

Finally around mile 17 I saw one of the husbands so I knew KT was close.  He was! He smooched me and said he was proud of me and what a great job I was doing.  Told me he loved me, handed me my banana (and one for my running buddy) and we took off.  Such a nice uplifting moment when you see the one that's there for you.

But, that only lasted like 3 miles.  Ha.  I knew I'd see him again at mile 23 so at mile 20 I asked my girl if she minded if I put my ear buds in so I could just zone out for a little while.  I needed some kind of mental time to be alone.  Even though obviously, I wasn't alone. I was with like, 8billion other people.  I definitely equate that feeling to being at work all day talking, talking, talking and then finally just getting home and wanting quiet.  I was over all the people at this point. Over talking, over listening, over over over it all.

As soon as I started listening to music, the miles ticked by.  Not like they normally do in a shorter run but more quickly than they were.  I kept trying to push myself harder. I'd go a few feet hard and then slow.  I just couldn't move quickly.  And then, the first full song that came on (my ipod was playing all along since I didn't know when I'd need it or if I'd know how to turn it on.) was Expressway to Your Heart by the Soul Survivors.  The song my dad and I danced to in the car as a kid and at my wedding. 

If there's anything I believe more than anything is that I have signs of him being with me.  This was a sign.  He was showing me his encouragement and I couldn't help but sing it OUT LOUD and tear up as I was running.  If my dad were here, he probably wouldn't encourage me to run that far but he would be supportive and I KNOW he would be proud.

Around mile 23 I started looking for KT again but didn't.  I took my ear buds out in case he was screaming for me.  He wasn't.  Sigh.  I was so hungry and tired but I kept hearing my pastor's words, "don't stop for anything. Unless you are injured, no stopping."  And so I didn't.  I tried hard to take my mind off things and the crowd helped significantly.  During this time I was talking to myself.  Telling myself about the people this run was for.  Charlie, Will, Kenny. Charlie, Will, Kenny. ME. This was for ME.

At mile 25, you go down an exit ramp thing and as I looked around,  a lot of people were crying.  I know now that it was because we were going past the Pentagon memorial.  I didn't know that's why they were crying at the time. I thought it was the emotion of being at mile 25 and starting to see marines cheering us on.

Finally. Mile 26.  Thank you God.  I pushed hard.  Then, at 26.1 there was a freaking hill that took all the wind out of me.  So hard.  But, I push and guess what? I finished.  I crossed the finish line.  I threw my hands up (even though I swore I wouldn't.) and started to sob.  There were marines lining the walkway to the medals all shaking hands and congratulating.  And in that moment, I just stopped and sobbed.  Thinking about how far I'd come and mostly thinking about my dad.  I miss him so much.

I made my way through the crowds. Waited for my running buddies forever and never saw them so just went on in case they were ahead of me.  I got my medal from a marine, a paper jacket, lots of food and drinks and finally found KT and the boys.  They were on the other side of a chain-length fence so I kissed KT through the fence. He was visibly proud.  He kept saying "You were too fast! I couldn't keep up with you!"  Yeah yeah.  Nice way to cover that I ONLY GOT ONE FREAKING BANANA! 

Will I ever run a marathon again?  Not sure.  I'm going to think about that and will get back to this blog on that one.  For now, I'll just keep enjoying the feeling of being able to do anything. 

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

Halloween

 
How did these two guys get so big? They are so fun and so happy to have each other. 

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Marathon!

I did it! I completed my very first marathon.  26.2 miles in 4:48.  It was slower than I'd hoped for (my slowest goal was 4:45) but it's done and I can be nothing but proud.

We saw many signs along the way talking about how the training is the hard part..the marathon is the victory lap.  I can't disagree with that. 

A marathon is hard work.  A hill at 26.1 is REALLY hard.  Losing your running buddies at mile 7 is even harder.  But, the pride of completing it is all worth it.

I need to process the experience a little more before I sit and write a full recap.  I'm a processor and to do it any justice, I need to just wait a little bit. 

The best part of all of it? I can't wait to go for a run again.  I'm actually wishing I wasn't so freaking sore right now because I'd love to go out for a run.  Especially  now that I don't have to do certain miles with certain outcomes.  Just run.  That's all I want to do right now.


Thursday, October 25, 2012

Hurricane? Marathon? What?

Yeah, so tomorrow, we leave for the marathon and Hurricane Sandy turns into a category 4 hurricane and is located east of Florida.  On Sunday during the run, it will be hanging out in the atlantic ocean just waiting to pounce.  Nice? No?

Luckily, reports seem to show that the rain and wind won't hit DC until Sunday afternoon.  Hopefully by then I'll have a medal around my neck, a beer in my hand, and ice on my legs. 

I'm finally nervous which is a good emotion to have going into this right?  I feel like I'm about to birth a baby.  No joke.

Please send all the positive mojo you have and good wishes for a dry and fun weekend.  Here we go!

Monday, October 22, 2012

6 days!

6 days until the Marine Corps Marathon.  There are times that I'm SO excited and others that I think I might puke.

I'm ready, I know. But I know it's going to be hard. 

Honestly? It feels like I'm getting ready for my wedding all over again. It consumes all my thoughts, I am thinking about all I need to have during the weekend, I'm worried about the letdown when it's over.

We have 3 miles on Tuesday, 2 on Wednesday, 2 on Saturday and then at 7:55 on Sunday, it's go time. 

Wowzers! So excited!

Saturday, October 13, 2012

we are officially crazy.

wake up time today was 3:55 a.m. for a 12 mile run.

hoping for a nap soon after i get home.

that's all.

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

My boy.

This morning on the way to school Will and I had a conversation that went like this:

Will: Oh, today is PE day! I love PE.
Me: You do? What do you like?
Will: We get to run a mile! Remember last week when I had that number? I ran then.
Me: Yes, I do remember. I'm so proud of you for running. Do you think you'll want to run with mommy one day?
Will: I do want to run with you. But, mommy, are boys allowed to run races too?

Imagine my happiness when he said this to me.  A sweet little boy who thinks that maybe just maybe running is something only girls can do because he sees his mama do it.

Proud mama, I am.  Very proud.

Thursday, September 27, 2012

Thankful Thursday

Today I am thankful for:
  • two healthy boys
  • wild mornings
  • a husband that is also a really great dad
  • girls' trip to the DR. Yes, I said the DR. As in the Dominican Republic.
  • All inclusive resorts
  • Free, good, coffee every single day at work in the cafeteria
  • little kids outside my door
  • the ability to run
  • that cozy feeling my house has when it's cool in the evenings
  • wild evenings
  • "if you would get off of me mommy, I could get out of bed!"
  • the bounce my boy had as I dropped him off at Kindergarten today.
  • knowing he gets the bounce from his mama. attendee at our wedding "i've never seen a bride BOUNCE at the alter"
  • leaves falling
  • running while the leaves are falling
  • "Charlie sleep in Mommy's bed!"
  • chicken barbeque in the crockpot
  • running buddies that just need to run to make the day better.
  • tie-dyed snot rags
  • "Expressway to Your Heart" on my iPod
  • date nights
  • friends that tell you they miss you
  • a weekend alone
  • kids of our friends who are just as good of friends to our kids
  • colleagues that are funny
  • chunky sweaters
  • instagram
I feel like there's more.  But I think when I start saying "that pencil on my desk" people might think I've lost my mind. But yes, I'm even thankful for the pencil.  It's just that kind of day. Bring on the unicorns and rainbows!

Wednesday, September 26, 2012

date night

Last night, I had a date with this guy:
I love that guy. I love that he's working so hard on being the best husband and father he can be.

So, so thankful.

Thursday, September 20, 2012

Twenty

Not gonna sugar-coat it. It hurt. Really. It did. However, it was good. I never thought I couldn't finish.  I didn't want to keep going necessarily but I knew I could.  And I totally knew I could do 6.2 more if I absolutely had to.  So there.  It's done.
 
Love my running girls.  They make it fun.
 

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

running pics

The first super long run - 11 miles.  Not gonna lie, I remember thinking 11miles was a really long way.  Now? Not so much.


This is the important part of running long distances.
at the time, this was my longest run ever and i was so.excited. 17.16 miles!
During 18, I had tummy issues and these girls thought it was funny.  I was not happy they wanted to take the time for a picture because of said tummy issues.  Ick. My 18 was slow but done!
After 18, just wishing there was a potty closeby.
after a taper run.. 13 miles. We've picked up a few new (awesome) running friends. 
19 miles.  So crazy because I felt so good during this run.  It gave me the confidence that I can do this damn marathon! YAY!

Monday, September 17, 2012

recent pics

Just a few pics.. look at how big these boys are getting!


My big guy in my big new office!


Boy is obsessed with the sink and washing his hands and face!
 
Going away party..


Sunday, September 16, 2012

Oh, hi there.

Yeah, so I underestimated how cray-cray (yes, it's a word.) my last weeks at the College were going to be and how busy the new job would be.  My goodness.  I would like to say I am just now coming up for air, but I kind of don't think that's the case.

I'm in this weird place.  I am having a REALLY hard time thinking/scheduling/planning anything besides where the boys will be, my running schedule (although the running buddies might disagree), and my work schedule.  Poor KT.  I have no idea where that guy is.

I am guessing it is just because I'm absorbing so much at the new job, reflecting on the old one so that I can effectively move on, and my brain is full. 

So in the last few months, I/We/They have:
-turned two with several parties
-turned five with a big birthday bash
-run 19 miles at one time and felt so good I pushed myself at the end of it.
-started Kindergarten
-started a new after-school program at my new school
-met lots of great new people through the new job
-missing my former colleagues like nobody's business.
-made lunches, sat in carpool, picked our uniform clothes.
-not volunteered at the new school knowing he'll be at my new school soon.
-not emailed friends back (I'm so sorry, friends.)
-tried to text my new digits but let's face it, I get tired.

That's only snapshot.  It's not much and I spend most of my quiet time feeling really badly about how I'm not at 100% with all facets of my life but this is only temporary. 

I promise I'll be a better friend, wife, colleague, mama very soon.  I just hope everyone is patient with me.

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

New Job!

On Friday, I will be closing my door at Guilco and opening a new door at a private independant school here in town.  I.am.so.excited.

It all happened randomly.  I wasn't looking for a job at all but as these things happen in this profession, a former colleague called to tell me about this opening (she also happens to work there. Oh and is now going to be my boss, but that's NOT how I got the job.)

I was on vacation at the River with my sister having the best.week.ever. and she called.  I talked about the job to friends, family, anyone who would listen and I decided to interview.  Monday after I got back from vacation.  Following Will's allergy check.  Ha.  What's that saying? "Anything worth doing is worth overdoing?"  Yeah, that's me.

So two weeks, 3 face to face interviews/meetings/tours, one skype call with two volunteers, I got the call that I'm hired! 

It's a great school that will offer my boys a great education.  Mo' money, reduced tuition, better insurance, better, better, better.  Oh, and room for advancement and a commute that could*  involve walking to work.

Yahoo! I start on the 4th! 

*Let's be serious here. I'm a runner but I'm not really a walk to work kind of girl.

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

This guy.

This little guy is going to Kindergarten. In one week. Tonight is the school picnic and next Monday is open house and then Wednesday, we'll pack up his newly purchased school supplies and walk him into his new school.  In his red polo and khakis. 

I just can't believe how quickly time flies. 

Friday, August 10, 2012

14 and 15

My amazing running buddy, Hilly, recapped our 14-miler the best anyone could.  You can read that here, if you haven't already.

Let me recap 15 really quickly.

After 14, I didn't run again until 15.  I was not really interested in leaving all this to go run:





So on Sunday, I drove the 5 hours back to NC and ran 15 miles.  Easy right? Ha!

I decided to break it up into 3 5-milers.  I started at 5pm.  It was a cool 91 degrees.

The first mile was fab. The second wasn't as great but okay. The 3-5 were brutal.  I was so freaking hot that sweat was flying off in front of me.  So gross.

I got to my car, cooled down, ate a banana, and started on the 2nd 5. Good.  Those miles were fine. Slow but fine.  I had my groove.

Then I started on the last 5.  Knowing that Hilly was meeting me for the last 2 of the run energized me until about 11.5. Then, it was like my Garmin just stopped working along with my legs, my head, my arms. Everything.  When I saw her pull in, I was at almost 13 and I wanted to die.  My legs hurt.  I sat on the ground and said I wasn't moving.

So we sat and chatted for a few minutes and then I got up again.

We finished 2 more miles and I literally wanted to die.  It was a train wreck from mile 2 until mile 15. I was so happy to be DONE with it.

Luckily, this week the 4, 7, and 4 have been good and have restored my faith in why I run.

Tomorrow, lucky number 13.  We've got this.

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

Nags Head 2012

I went in to this trip sort of expecting the worst and it turned out pretty well.  The week flew by and overall, I was happy with how it went.  It's hard going from a house of 4 to a  house of 17..even if it's just for a week.

Regardless of the noise, it was so nice hanging out with my sisters and with Dana.  ("Bana" as Charlie calls her.  LOVE IT!)

We are home now and I am leaving on Saturday to take the boys to my sister's river house for a week! SO excited! There was no way I'd want to be here on the anniversary of my dad's death. I'm happy to spend it with my sister and our littles.

Enjoy the pics! I'm going to snuggle up to my little guy.  Marathon training is NO joke.

Nana and 10 of 12 grandkids.

Will with Jack!

This guy LOVED the water!

Poor Charlie. He hated the beach!

Me and my man!

Seesters!

Jenni and me with our grandmother (my dad's mom)

Friday, July 13, 2012

It's time!

Guess who is going to the beach tomorrow?
Yep. This girl. But only after I run 12 miles with these crazy girls.

Then I'll hop in the car with these cute guys and hopefully nap and stretch along the way.


I'm really quite sad that this amazing guy won't be with us this year.  Way more sad than I expected to be.  We'll miss him but I know we'll make new traditions and he would be happy we are continuing without him..

 And we'll have this great time from last year etched in our memories forever. 



Have a good week. See ya!

Thursday, July 12, 2012

Pace

Who's ya mama?
Yesterday I was grumpy because 1. my wonderful running buddies that I love unconditionally (hi, running buddies!) bailed on me in the morning for our 5miler and 2. I had therapy yesterday and all kinds of grief work was started which is completely necessary but hard..

So I went for a run. And my, my did I rock it out!  I was so proud of myself.  I am pretty consistent in my 10 - 10:15 minute miles and usually when I run alone, I can squeak out a pace of 9:49/mile but 9:34?! WOOT! And yes, that's the average pace.  Not the pace for just one mile and yes, I did hills and turnarounds and all that jazz, ahem, Hilly.

Let's not talk about this morning's 4 miles at 10:47.  Oops.

Monday, July 9, 2012

Two.

Dear Charlie,

Today, my love, you are two.  TWO!  It's been a fun two years.  You've brought joy and love to our home. You've worried us and you've kept us on our toes.  You fit in perfectly.

This year, in particular, has been pretty big for you.  You've broken two bones, been treated for asthma, and are a talking machine.  Luckily, the first two haven't really slowed you down.  You run little funny (I call you my sandpiper) but other than that, I think you are just a 2-year old boy.  You are fast and furious when you want to get somewhere. 

I've been amazed at how much you say.  Everything you hear, you repeat.  Last night, you were up a lot because you have a cold and you wanted rocking.  Here's how the hour passed at 3a.m.

Charlie: Mommy! Rock, please.
Me: okay buddy.
Charlie: Lala! lalla!
Me: Charlie, you need medicine, it will make you better. Can I give you this medicine? (pointing to nebulizer)
Charlie: Okayyy mommy. Book? Lala? Monkeyyy! Medicine mommy.

Then I tried several times to lay you down in your crib. "Sing mommy." "Rock mommy." "Sit mommy"

And as you laid on top of me, you had your arms wrapped firmly around me with your head nestled into my neck.  I could sit like that forever and be a happy mama.  I love to have your weight on me and hear you breathe. 

Charlie, you seriously light up the room.  You have wonderful smile and a strong personality. Your spunk and sass is so... happy. And jolly.  We all just love to watch you and see what you might do next.  If we ask you a question, I can always expected an "okay" or a "NO Mommy!"  You spent last week with your grandparents and now you are saying "Huh?" whenever I ask you a question.  It's actually very funny even though it makes me crazy when your daddy says it.

This year, you also lost your PapPap.  It makes my heart hurt knowing that you will have never known such an amazing man.  I hope that you know he loved you so much.  My fondest memory of the two of you is at the beach just a week before he passed away.  You two sat under the tent and played for so long and whenever I would look up at him, I could see such joy in his face to be playing with you. I can't wait to tell you more about him and I so wish he could tell me what I already know about you..that you are one fantastic little boy.

I can't say enough how much joy you have brought to our family.  Will has so much fun playing with you and is always to help out when you need it.  You have become a great little helper from watching your brother, I suppose.  You love to put things in the trash, help me make my coffee, feed the dog, and throw clothes into the washing machine! I love how much you help!

Charlie, thank you for choosing us as your family.  Our hearts are so full because of you and your brother. 

With all my love,

Mama

Two in pics

This picture makes me so happy because he was so clearly happy.  Love this kid!

Yes, my sweet boy went in for a kiss while we were posing.


Happy boy at the pool on Sunday.

Hugging his bunny.

Cheese! 

Will wants a birthday hug!

Got him!

"Uh dat?"

*melts my heart*